my exams are finally over and done with, well, for this semester at least (trying not to think about my new semester that thats in 2 weeks time and next exam thats in october). wheeeee~ its PARTY TIME! haha... but thats just a statement la, i don't party that much. getting too old for that. feel so out-of-place in clubs, like "what's this obasan doing here?"

the exams for my course starts and ends earliest among most courses around in singapore. to all those whom are still mugging, "STUDY HARD" ok. nothing beats the satisfaction of rewarding yourself with hard play after all the hard work. unlike me, whom wasn't feeling at all happy after my exams simply because i feel i hadn't put in enough efforts. playing seems like any other day as i had been playing all along everyday can. *bleahz*

this couple of days has been like so filled with activities all of a sudden. everything seems to just come at once.

anyways, well, heres how my days weeent... it just seems to fly by. "time, can you slow down a little?"

14 april

struggled with myself whether to go sit for a paper that i know i'm sure will not be able to write more than 3 lines. in the end, decided to just go for it - if you don't try you will never know. maybe the examiner might decide to ask us to recite the a-b-c backwards. i'm sure i can do that.

well, the paper was not bad afterall. meaning i will fail less badly. haa...

took a bus from school to lot 1 to take my lunch at sakae sushi. dar's driving the car nowadays as i prefer to be fetched around. heh... i like eating alone. just sitting there with yourself and a book is so idyllic. like without a care in the world. like nothing can rush you. like everything around isn't important at all.

a book. yes, i had pop by into the library to borrow a book before getting lunch. as usual la, i always go for romance books. haha... how un-self-improving. only teenagers read romance books. my favourite romance author is danielle steel. =} i hate to start reading a book sometimes, it makes me want the read the book from cover-to-cover all at one shot, ignoring everyone and everything else.

after finishing lunch, met up with dap to go to kbox and sing our lungs out impromptu-ly. she had nothing to do, i had nothing to do, so meet up lor. "oei, actually you got something to do ok. you got to study lors." its been ages since i've been ktv-ing. i totally sucks at it, tormenting everyone (xiangyingjoined us later) with my horrible horrible vocals. they (dap & xiangying) make me feel old. they are so much younger than me. *sighs* we could sing till 9pm but i left earlier. its really pretty worth it. $14 and you can sing from 3pm to 9pm (i think as i went at 4pm like that).

its dinner at home or rather mom's house after that.

*sighs* when i shouldn't be blogging, i spent all my time doing it. when i could blog all i want, i had no desire to do it. played online games (scrabble, goldmining, mahjong) till 3am before turning in. felt so zombified.

oh yes, did i mentioned i spent an entire hour changing all my online passwords. tedious man. so many different types of online accounts - blogging related, games related, emails related, school related, work related.

i had got signed out of msn when talking to friends suddenly with an error message popping out saying "you have been signed out of msn for this session because msn detected you have signed in somewhere else" or something along that line. freaked me out.

someone had hacked into my account sia. *grrrrr* well, not that it is difficult to do so as my old password was really easy to remember. as easy as abc. the old password is literally 'abc123'. please don't try to guess my new one. please don't hack my account. please please please. i don't want to go through the process so soon man. damn torturous. i use the same password for all so that i don't forget which i use for which. hence, if i change one, i will change all. =/

15 april
got awoken at 8am by the ringing of my phone. today is the last day of 'qing ming jie'.

arranged with the kampong to go sweep ah ma and ah gong's tombs at lim chu kang so late this year because had waited for 'xiao shu' (dad's youngest brother) to come back from overseas (his work based him in sri lanka). he is the apple of ah ma's eye as he is the youngest son.

ah ma worried about him constantly before she left the world as he hadn't had a proper job back then. ah ma worried about him constantly before she left the world as he was single back then. ah ma worried about him constantly before she left the world as he's always happy-go-lucky and not serious back then. but 'xiao shu' now has a great job, a great wife anda great daughter. =>

~ring ring ring~
mom : wake up liao not?
me : ya
mom : get ready ok.
me : ok

its been ages since the last time i went with them. i wasn't allowed to go as my surname is not theirs anymore. i hate their mentality. its what makes me pissed off sometimes.

sister : you going sweep tomb tomorrow?
me : ya
sister : mom asked me to
go, i said i don't want. then she say none of the grandchildren going so
insisted i go, but i said linda going what, got ma. then mom said, linda is not chua anymore so she is not considered chua's grandchild.
me : *stunned & speechless*

i felt completely devastated. i had wanted to go every year because i miss my ah ma. even though she is a very traditonal woman whom favoured boys than girls, but she had been so wonderful to us when she was around. she would cook nice things for us to eat every weekend when we go visit her, bring us to the playground and buy sweets for us. but i hadn't had the opportunity to sweep her tomb since 4 years back. it didn't matter a lot to me as my ah ma lives in my heart but i thought she would be happy to see me.

i hadn't wanted to go after that conversation with my sister. but mom called the next morning despite me voicing out that i'm not going due to her not appreciating my efforts to go. i know she loves me alot but she really has this old-fashioned thinking that makes me really so upset always. their such attitude really affects me. i'm still their daugther what. *sobs*

~phone rings again 5 minutes later~
mom : you wake up already?
me : ya
mom : you go to your next block, tell the man in the shop for offerings for grandmothers.
me : huh? don't need la. you buy so much already.
mom : you go now then wait below your block for us. we will be there in 15 minutes.

i didn't buy anything in the end. its not that i'm trying to be disrepectful or anything. its just so... i mean i do buy offerings during seventh month and the likes of such. *sighs*

i want to go because i want to see ah ma. i want to go because i can help them by carrying and arranging stuffs so the old people don't have to kneel down for long periods of time doing the latter. i want to go because it reminds me of my childhood days when ah ma is around.

and i'm sure ah ma wouldn't mind if i didn't bring along anything or not since mom already got a whole bootful. hmmm, maybe she would? as i said, she's a very traditional woman. ok lor, next year i get ready in advance can. not like just wake up, rushing to get ready, then dash across a few blocks and a big carpark (mom remembered wrongly ok, its not the next block) to get the stuffs and then run back to wait for the car. =(

i nearly cried when i saw ah ma. its so different from just seeing her tablet at my aunt's house. that is just words. but i can see her picture of her on her tomb and bring me back to the past, i just felt so sad. i really miss her.

lunched with the kampong and then rush to meet rowena for a while before going down to raffles place to settle some a whole lot of stuffs.

it was 4pm by the time i was done and went shopping around that area. saw a really really really lovely suit but they didn't have the skirt in size S. yes, i'm a S still ok. *boo*

the day ended early for me. feeling all worn out from the previous night mugging with no sleep in between (ktv-ing), late online gaming, early morning and no sleep in between (errands) again.

16 april

its noon as usual by the time i wake up on saturday. everyone else had got up by then. only me still pigging out. hur hur...

brought mom's car to fix a big dent that some unconsiderate anonymous bugger had inflicted. along with the dent is 2 ugly deep scratches. went to capitol centre in town where there's this famous dent remover workshop. credited by some wheel motoring and city beat ok. but they only do dents the size of coins and our dent is pretty horrendous. so got to bring it to a workshop to get it fixed.

drove to expo to see if there are any exhibitions or fairs as we were bored with nothing to do. they had a pet fair last sunday. but there was nothing on so drove home. did stopped in between at lot 1 to get some tea-time snacks (takopachi & old chang kee) and my honey red bubble tea. yum yum yum... =9

it was already 5pm when we finally got home. i didn't take my usual saturday nap as i was still caught up in my book. hadn't had time to complete it still.

dinner at mom's place. dad bought the famous 'yiam kuay' (salted chicken). very salty but very delicious. hee... cleaned out dollars cage before going back. turned to bukit panjang plaza to buy another cup of honey red bubble tea along the way. basket, its $1.20 there. so unfair. different pricing. should be standardised one ma. =P then got a stick of prawns from old chang kee. there had only that left for sale. =[ i always buy the squid fritters like earlier in the afternoon. so chewy. i love sotong la. anyhing to do with sotong will be my favourite. that's why i'm blur as sotong always ma.

i was so tired when i got home that took a nap in the middle of night from 9pm to 11.30pm. *bleahz* woke up to bathe and do some housework.

just ate some supper. i'm such a glutton. but i really love eating, eating and MORE eating! ok, point proven by all my food blogging. hur hur hur...

tomorrow is going to be another busy day. going to plaza singapura's spotlight to get some art & craft materials for regan's school project before heading to sim lim to get dar's repaired hard disk (finally after like 3 months) (forgot to take the receipt out today so cannot collect though we were so nearby). afternoon nappy, maybe can go for some exercise at bukit timah hill and then buy back dinner to eat. i got tomorrow's plan all work out. =)

hope your weekend is as interesting, enjoyable & fun as mine!